I think I faked a shit load of emotion today..I am pretty sure..

How do you know you honestly feel something? Why does anyone want their emotions to be known, if there is nothing can be / needs to be *done* about it? Is it because, you just want to be known for having had that emotion?

When you say something out loud how do you know you are not modifying your feeling to be more expressible? to fit the need of the audience?

Suppose, someone expected you to be proud, and you are talking of your achievement, if you pump it up a notch to make the impact? isn't that not pathetic and hypocritical?

Suppose, someone expected you to be guilty, and you started talking about your guilt, and if you end up repeating some sentences about your guilt that you had said before, how screwed up is that?

Why do I notice in myself, a constant need to be perceived as someone of this or that quality?
Why can't I just be ?